Willing to accept what you dont want to accept. Finding your light powers with knowledge

I want you to find it in yourself to keep believing no matter what you see, i see that there are times that we go in and you as the sadness in your soul needs to be lifted. As your waiting for me to succeed in peacefulness within the onesness that we are able to be in together when we think of eachother! As i have said to you all you have to do is think of me to come to our onesness, our spiritual powers activations start in the efforts that keep us together! I find myself hurting in looking towards be trueful on how i feel about you in a way to bring you up, i see a need to start again, find myself keep batteling things i have no business in batteling with other women, i find myself conflicting myself with a devine path, i dont fulfill that conflicting path, so i keep surpassing it, i keep going into taking that step towards it and not finishing it, so as i begain to stop this process by going back towards you, i found myself in a battlefield knowing and unknowly towards the timeline i accepted kept messing with myself! I keep going, i didnt stop believing i just found myself in steps and struggles that you endure, now that i find myself in this i find my way back to it, even with all the doubts that carried on your spirit your soul seeks better, knowing you have no hesitation is a grace period on my heart! Seeing this feeling this knowing that you carry this battle with me and go through it is amazing and beautiful like you, you can think about your doubts all you want, no, every time you spend thinking and feeling about them while believing them is a real spiritual down play! I believe that i can bring you from your doubts , i understand that theres been a destructive experience from my Facebook so i have created a new path that aligns better! I have told you that it involves something with beehive, in that time , i wasnt sure extually what it was, god intervened and agreed that this destructive path was not needed! So i now i am here! I will continue to try to bring myself to this new directive! Gods timing and devine put me onto this site and path! The knowledge of this site was given to me what like 3 months ago, i stated back to you all i know is it has to deal with beehive! The new timeline restores balance in our conflicting thoughts, as i have said i need your help, in our lifes switched as i stated over a year ago that thos would happen! I want you to begain to do something i had hoped you would do from my spiritual enlightenment guidance teachings when i started this, you felt like you didnt know the differences, like you couldn't believe in yourself to see the differences, in yourself to accept that the task at hand as i have said wont seem to be easy, correction & healing, finding your path to your own light, as you began to trust to know how to listen to gods alignment, from all the struggles with you dont want to endure pain, this confliction started sometime in the beganing or middle of the year of ascension teachings, you dont want to feel pain , this fear of endurning pain, hardship conflicts with listening to gods alignment within yourself to find your own light, this is a struggle that brings alot of not mending tinelines towards becoming your light while finding to get to know and understand and how your light is, this way you can find a way on how to newly use it fof good, as you say you know how your going to use it, well as i have told you within your onsness you cant nesserly use it like before, i ment within lustful manners, i understand that turns you towards lost feelings like yiu dont kniw how yiur going to use it, thats the best thing, i had no idea what i was going to write even as i was typing, i was fallowing along a directive including alliwing the spirits to flow through me telling me what to write, we dont need to feel like we know everything, we go as needed, not of our own within listening on what to do, thats why living not for your ownself is so important to me, its the way we go to use our innerlight and do from within our inner workings, seeing the differences within my passages means catching the differences and being the difference! I understand that all this can take you through back in forth stressful times! Like theres just to much to do that you honestly dont believe you can nor will do, you can and may, those times you had to take a breather while friends in the living room and you left to go outside for 5 mins, i saw that you had smoke a cig twice from those nights , you would go out there and look at the sky and picture the universe and its vased space knowing theres so much more than you e er knew before and just wonder why doubts was in the background in the back burner trying to make its way, the wonders and hurt was something that you was on! What i saw was our universe in the sky, purple blueish dark sky, i had known what you saw was stars, what you was thinking about became so visualized for me reiina! Tonie, this life we carry together within our twin flamed onesness has another world within to offer! I understand that you dont want to talk about being a catalyst for change for others, being a difference will help create that also, being the difference has something that starts chain affects in all around our light resonations, i want to start with some coffee times together, id like to start with meditation meet ups, i want this in the beach at night near your familys in edan, i want this to begain in the mornings before i work, on my days off in my free time, in person meet ups will help to change our frequencies together and comform together better ! Being in person our separate light energies will align and resonate and learn together not bend eachother , mending our timelines, frequencies, stagnations, manifestations, light frequencies will start to become quicker and easier for us to harness the means to go in with eachother peacefully, the catching the needed ways to go from certain words in my spiritual enlightenment accelerated ascension upgrades lightworker health and spiritual wealth guidance towards eachother & others is something of a different kind of fallowing than you knew than! This promblem your having aligned with others knowing to much info that carried out in ways that make it problematic to carry out in finding your way to your own path to trying out the lightworker ways to uplift others timelines towards living better with knowledge on how to go about life, you showed them a path on how to do things, this knowledge you feel like you no longer had put you in a spirual disbelief in yourself, let alone the time where you still struggle that you feared me so much, where time started to change, times recently you begain to understand why i am the way i am! You keep seeing them through these writings, and at times from other parts of life around me! Theres alot of these times where i try to cover all bases and sonetimes theres the times if i have you completely wrong that you push me away so far, show me correct me, i need your effort just as much as god does! This doesn't just help you to start as you once did for me, i understand that in the times you felt like i wasnt going to go your way! I feared, yes, and other times i had no idea that it was all going to be oka! Theres alot in that that will feel like it will prove you away from me, when you feel like i am personally wrong about you you push me away, your pride has gotten you to prove others on how not to take that personally because you go to do it to everyone, this is a bad timeline path towards your lightworker gifts and frequencies, they change, it doesn't end up helping you towards seeing your light so you can find a way to harness to use it, firstly this is something im notioned your not ready for, changing this is something you need to let go of feeling with me on your not who i think you are, i am pushing you, directing you, aligning you towards your light, getting you away from personality traits that doesnt align with your higher self! I am going to uplift you this way, confining and conforming together and aligning our soul purpose together begains with changes you dont want to make, doing things you dont want to do, alot of these things will probally make you ……..one of the other things while listening in on the ones ess while im covering basis you go to be ….. you hold a subject of thoughts of your not good enough. That your not it, that you cant do this, that its not you, silly girl, my spiritual lover these times will being you to align with your light, trails and tribulations are not who we are even when we are asked to do something, were in a stage to get you to find your own light, this is something i loose you on completely, this is something your not willing to do, not everything has to be now!!!!!! Align our frequencies with meeting up for meditational frequency activations and healings! Take this step towards finding a way in, i am loosing you because you literally believe i am taking you on a road towards someone who your not because one thing that you believe you cant do ! Do you understand the power that takes from you, being resistant towards those things is resilience, its how i stay positive! I know that i can not enter that lower frequency, that brings you towards stagnancy! Its what’s stopping you, uplifting you is a hard task, this is how i nust do it, showing you these times these ways, believe again ….please dont loose hope in thinking your not fit for this, you said that enough times in times and of places enough for me to understand, your question would be than why do i do it, because i must bring you up to it and uplift you, just like you said within our onesness together than why dont i come, you didnt understand why i wouldn't come, if everything around you and everybody was willing to allow us and let the issuies go and let us be, you didn't understand why i wouldn't come if we had our ableness in peace, we do not till you accept this issuie you have in life with the nessary mending changes that will align us together and sepertate within our light and onesness! I know i ask alot especially when your ever so tired! Acceptance is important remember your willingness within acceptance before, now this ones really hard, its really simple this time, no hesitation while going in for the greater good of change to alignment and spiritual conforming! This is a key activation within your innerworkings with an abundance, this is not something you want to miss out on! This start is now more indepth, harsh environments you dont want to deal with, accept this task at hand please! Come to join me for in person meet up to do what must be done! 💯 This is something about endurance and acceptance as also so much more that has been included before! You struggle we go more indepth to find the differences together as i struggle as you have recently, this is my task at hand, to endure as you have, as we both go through this in different times in different ways as the same difference within meaning behind the indepth of unseen and unknown to most, the difference is that what i am trying to change is that the difference is that you cant see, do or feel like you have it in you, do or have or be! Disbelief within yourself within this manner is a real spiritual down play that stops you from seeing the knowledge and recieving it! You said to me many times you dont know if your fit for this! I understand this issuie you have, you have had this kept in you sence before i knew you, why do you think i know all this, you keep asking how do i do what i do, you keep saying that i dont know how he does what he does, accept this ableness in uplifting eachother, believe again, its not that easy fir you, feel better think differently see differently, manifesting is hard for you because you simply just dont feel like you can do this! I know you can, you believe differently, you ask why do i believe that were ment to be together, why do i believe your someone who your not, i am trying to activate your light, it takes time and effort, trastic changes your normally not used to making, changes you dont want to do, your so honest with yourself that you stay stagant because you dont want to change, oka yes i agree to a certain extant which is where i have always lost you, this is not a path i created, this is a path i choose! This isnt just something i believe in, its a timeline that brings us back together in a way unknown and unseen by you, correction and healing! Mid 2017 i know it was you because you painted the picture i told you to paint with the type of paint i told you to, the pastery kind, with the type of brushing in the way i told you to paint it as, you listen, you believe, you trust, you waited, i understand that you will feel like you have wronged the time because of actions of going against at tines, grace period yourself forgive yourself, i am the one who says yes no judgements because i am here to go through with you of uplifting you through the part you never gave me, i felt like there was no room to grow with you, this is an issuie at hand that your prode takes you on a wild spiritual down play, i mean not to be harsh, i say with tears, love, compassion, i understand that your willing otherwise i could not be here! Just being here i never thought id be here like i am! Lets be honest how far have we come together! I understand thatthis can be very hard to do, spiritually confining together is my goal in life! My goals are set on you, acceot please! You say you didnt understand why , you feel like you disagree with, you push me away, i understand that it took you some time to say i just need some time, you get over some of this stuff and you come back, i dont want to be in the situation where you never do come back and i have you the same way! This is why i feel the way i do! I know and understand i can not pass you up! I didnt plan for this i was listening in without words,! God or the angels, christ the heavens came to speak to both of us through me within our onessness about this spiritual clift area! Your painting is the other side of that watery clift bank we used to go in together! This is who we are, you asked what are we! This is what we are! This is why we are! Thank you for being so you, your grace that you found one night while driving and fucking for me, your willingness ti gather the no hesitation, your acceptances that this is what it is within, your main aspect still is, not everything knowledged, our onesness that we go into we can do in person.